Sometimes, in the thin hours before dawn, he would wander the riverbank and watch the water peel light from the city. He would remember a different hunger then—clean, unaccompanied by the parasite's whisper—an appetite that was uncomfortable but honest. Those memories felt unreal, like a dream the parasite preferred he forget. Once, a child he had known from childhood scrambled across the quay to ask for a coin. Little Puck reached into his pocket and produced one, then watched as the child left smiling. The parasite, pleased, fed. Little Puck felt momentarily complete, as if generosity could soothe the hollowness.
The parasite diminished not because he somehow outran it but because he stopped feeding it with the kinds of choices that made it thrive. In time the whisper thinned into a background noise—occasionally sharp, occasionally persuasive, but no longer the organ controlling his limbs. He found delight sinking back into small things he had not valued while the parasite commanded his appetites: the honest satisfaction of a pigeon caught and fed, the clean warmth of a pie eaten sitting on a doorstep, the uncomplicated joy of slipping a coin into a child's palm without strings attached. little puck parasited full
The fullness changed what he saw. Where he had once noticed the crook of an old man's hand, the parasite fed his gaze on opportunities: an unlocked purse, a quarrel that could be stoked, a child left to cross alone. He learned the economy of favors—how a tiny theft could be exchanged for a half-truth that opened a door. He became efficient at survival, at exploitation. But efficiency has a shadow: calculation cools kindness. His laughter thinned into calculation; his pranks became transactions; his coal-eyed joy turned to a ledger kept in a pocket with the pigeons. Sometimes, in the thin hours before dawn, he
On the night the river gleamed like a black coin and the town's lamps threw yellow pools into the street, Little Puck sat on the quay and watched his reflection. He was smaller than he had once imagined he'd be had he given in to every demand, but he was not empty. Inside him the parasite muttered, occasionally loud enough to be noticed. He placed his hand on his ankle scar, felt the skin scarred and real, and let the whisper rise and ebb like tide. He had been parasited full—given a fullness that had nearly drowned him—and he had learned to turn that gift into a lean and honest hunger: one that survived, yes, but also gave back. Once, a child he had known from childhood
Then the thing came.
"Why do you trade what you are?" she asked when, finally, she stepped forward. Her voice was flat as iron filings. "You were a thief to eat. You were a liar to survive. That is one thing. But now you sell them for a living."
Not everyone was fooled. A woman with braided gray hair and a scar on her palm who mended nets at the edge of the wharf watched him with a gaze that weighed like tide. She had known him as a boy and knew the cadence of his laughter well enough to hear the parasite's off-key note. One evening she followed him through the alleys, not to accuse but to see. She found him at the wheel of a small storm he had planted—a dispute between two merchants over a ledger—and sat down on a crate to watch. The parasite flared, and for the first time Little Puck felt a coldness he did not understand: the realization that his cleverness had a cost measured in the faces around him.